What can I say Luciemine?
I'm so sorry that u had to have u heart ripped and shredded like that. I would say you one of the first persons on this forum to actually have something to complain about when it comes to us men. In all justification to the matter @ hand, u've absolutely no reason whatsoever to trust a guy ever. Hey! who would blame u? Now, I know u loved an trusted a real 'mummy's boy' as*h*le. Despite how heart broken I'm sure u must b right now, I can safely assume that u're a young woman with a lot of prospects. I don't think u should allow this experience define who u're going to be. AS humans, we can't control what happens to us, only how we react to them. I'm really praying God give u the strength to get through this (even though it might leave a nasty scar). U're a very young woman with a lot of nice things ahead of her. There's so much u have to offer to let some SOB steal all that from u. This incident does not in any way change u are. If u keep mulling over this incident than u'll always end up standing in 1 spot in life. Think of something constructive to do with urself. If u continue crying over all this and planning revenge, then the SOB has won. It's really gonna hurt like hell but want u to do this for me.
I know ur heart's in a real pain, but every morning when u wake up just tell urself 'Nothing and no one can stop me from healing and succeeding in anything I want to do'. At first, It's all going to feel like 'who am kidding? my Life is over'. But I know it isn't. Get something to do (something u love, Business, a project u've been wanting to do for a long time) that'll take ur mind of all this. U'll heal, I know it. U're a strong lady (otherwsie u wouldn't have shared this us). The SOB wasn't worthy of u. I wish I had a number 4 u to call, but at this very moment I'm not in the country. I think U really need someone to help u get through this (I would say preferrably not male), but u need a sympathetic shoulder. I'm not sure u can or should go through this alone. Stay strong sister! It's not even the end. . . just the end of a bad dream.